I am here looking for help because I fear losing her. I know how I feel but I am afraid that she will run off with the new guy she found because he is there and I am not. Yes it was her choice to run away because finding out me leaving for a year triggered her manic phase but I am afraid this phase will last through the choice of divorce. If things were actually bad between us I would understand but things were great we were happy she had her ups and downs but the relationship it self was good.