Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. It is very hard to let things go when you are to be the strongr person, and not have problems dealing with emotional issues. Journaling may help a bit, but I feel you are trying to move too fast ,and let things go at a level of speed that may not be appropriate, and you are feeling stressed because you are trying to expose too much too soon, and you are not ready to deal with every issue at this time. I feel that you are trying to unload the pain and torment in one quick swoop, and you may need to take things slower, in order to be able to heal, and deal with the issues in a better and a safer manner for your mental health. It is okay to seek therapy for yourself, you are human, and people need more in depth help from thime to time. I also want to leave you the hotline number to call if you get into a crisis 1-800-273-TALK, or if you need to talk to someone in person. Take care I hope the best for you in the future, Happy Holidays sincerely Soidhonia