Hello I hope things are getting easier for you at thie time. It is good to hear that you want to take control of your life and get better in your recovery. I also want to leave you 2 hotline numbers that you can call if you need to talk to someone in person 1-800-273-TALK and 1-800-DONT-CUT. Try to take things one day at a time, it is possible that your county has an outpatient program as well that you may want to attend until you are strong enough to help yourself alone. You will have to ask your dr about the programs, in your area. You may also want to ask about getting a case manager to help you take care of your affairs, bills, rent, and so forth for you until you are feeling better. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia