My husband of 15 years told me a couple of months ago that he had an affair 8 years ago. He told me he was sorry, that he didn't want to lose me. I asked him to leave, and he did. I've never been so hurt. I think that this is actually worse than the incident that caused my PTSD. What I don't understand is why is he not begging me to stay together? Why is he not doing eveything he can to save our marriage? Am I being selfish for wanting him to beg even though I'm not sure I'd be willing to take him back, or willing to try marriage councelling? It's a hurt like no other. With him not even trying to talk to me makes me feel rejected, or like he's waiting for me to call him and say "Okay, I'm over it now. You can come home." So confused.