i have been suffering from a pretty bad existential crisis lately because my religion was getting harder to swallow.

But honestly, I have been getting in touch with the true roots of my religion (there is so much BS added on that ruin its core) and it has kind of moved me in the direction of "everything is pointless" to "God is a total prick" which I guess is progress.

I read a book, if you have any interest, by a scientist (gerald schroeder) who explores the writings of the old testaments with the original biblical commentaries, and he ties in evolution and physics. I was surprised to learn that the bible does not in fact oppose evolution in the way that creationists do. He goes on to explain that the world is millions of years old, but "Adam" has the first soul, (rather than the first human) for example. He does not bend science, or the bible to show this.