SI seems to creep up doesn't it? I'm two years out but still have times when I have to fight not to attack myself. I don't think it is something that you cure. Its more like an addiction. You are always in a state of recovery. That being said, if you give in to your urge, then it may all come rushing back, and the hard work you did to stop yourself from SI will go down the toilet.

Realize that it doesn't mean you are weak. SI is a symptom of a deeper problem, and it may be that something triggered urges. If you never resolved the underlying problm, its still haunting you. Some people drink, some take drugs, people like us punish outselves.

If you aren't already in therapy, get back into it. Something is wrong in your heart, and no one deserves to hurt like that.

Sam2