First, please, keep trying. I'm so glad that I did and that my attempts were unsuccessful. What I did was devastating for all those who loved me and for me. I so wish I could take it back, but I cannot. All I can do is use what happened to me and what I learned to try to become an excellent, compassionate, and empathic therapist.

Second, if you have a good bond with your T and have a great T, then your T will be devastated. I made an attempt after 6 months of seeing my current T. I was on my way to healing, but had a very bad day and a terrible, momentary lapse in judgment coupled with an overreaction to a situation. My T was definitely upset and angered by it. I could definitely tell that she cared. It would be hard on your T just like it would be hard on anyone that you have a relationship with. Please, keep trying and moving along.