Hello sorry to hear that you are not feeling well at this time. I hope you feel better soon, I am going to leave you the hotlinge number to call if you would like to call and talk to someone in person. 1-800-273 TALK. am very sorry that you are hurtung and can not get any relief for your pain. There are 2 support groups that are good that may be in your area NAMI and DBSA both can be found on the internet. Journaling may help as well if you are not feeling understood or feel that you are alone in the support that you are neeing at this time. I really hope that you feel better soon, and you get the comfort that you need for your emotional survival soon, and get help working on your issues with a therapist that can help you with the issues that you are having at this time. You have done very well in your recovery and you can get through this as well, with the right help. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia