What a great story Online user. I'm really happy for your father.
I am just so grateful for modern medicine. I was so unable to cope with anything and so scared and filled with self-loathing. Meds gave me back to myself. Now I can be useful and not a burden. I'm the same person but I can think more clearly and develop the more positive traits that I have. All my energy isn't required just to barely live and keep myself from self harm.
Please Sadplant, just give meds and maybe therapy also, a try. It can take some time and adjustments to get the best combinations for you but it's so worth the effort.
I hope you feel better soon