I haven't seen my T for an individual session in nearly 5 weeks. It's the longest I've gone without a session in the last 4+ years of therapy....and the break came right after a major rupture that almost ended in him terminating me, but then reconsidering and us working to repair....So...

At first, I seemed quite ok about it....then, I started feeling anxious about the break and counting the days....Now, I'm feeling so distant from him, my feelings, my issues, my work and have no interest in delving back into it...but part of me misses him. It's a roller coaster for me, really.

I'm thinking it may be a defense mechanism at work, but I can't be too sure.

Oh, and I'm a straight female seeing a male T.