I see my T via online chat sessions. She's experienced. I like, respect, and trust her. It's been 5 months. She has stated I have PTSD though I know that technically only psychiatrists/medical doctors can diagnose it. I feel the diagnosis fits, though I wish it did not.

I was upset recently during a session, doubting my self, my old fragmented memories on a topic and the idea that I had PTSD. She has experience with combat PTSD particularly, so, I think I should have faith in her assessment. It's not exactly that I think I don't have it, but that... I was very upset, that sometimes I wonder if I have to own up to such a serious set of symptoms.

My T replied that I could let her be the certain one for now. I told her it was too easy for therapists to be certain, to put together pieces of a puzzle and hastily make a judgement about what was causing a client's distress. She was insulted, said I was trivializing her profession and questioning her personal integrity.

I was reassured by her response because it demonstrated personal pride, but then.... I read a public online Q&A session she had with a customer on another site, where she told them, based on ONE conversation and one online quiz by a bi-polar specializing doctor, that the customer was "highly likely to have Bi-Polar" and also, told the customer she would need to be on lifelong medications. I will say, she did also refer the customer to a psychiatrist and the quiz had a disclaimer, but her language was very strong and I would say it would be life-changing for that customer. I think those statements were hasty and ill-advised. (I asked a psychiatric nurse I trust to read it, and she said that type of thing was common but not appropriate.)

So, I wrote my therapist a letter asking her to explain. I was very very careful in how I phrased it. I fear she will be angry and defensive, but... I just need to know if she thinks she was playing it fast and lose with that customer, and I want to feel that she is not being cavalier with me.

I believe she cares about me deeply, and I care about her. I am so scared that I sent her my concern. I am so scared of how it will affect our relationship, or that she'll even terminate me. When I raised my point about therapists being quick to judge originally, she said maybe we shouldn't even continue if I doubted her so much after our time together.

Anyone have any comfort or perspective for me please?