Thanks Asiablue. The online therapy works really well for me, luckily. It's not that which concerns me. I feel scared, but hope she would not actually terminate me. If so, then indeed, I would need a new therapist. It's because I'm so attached to this one that I worry so, and because of what she said about us not continuing (she said that after the part about feeling insulted, sorry I didn't mention that in my original post), which was in the heat of the moment.

I'm not sure about this one though: "she needs to keep herself out of your session" It's in the relationship that she thinks the healing occurs and I agree. Of course, that can make things a bit messier, but I appreciate her selective sharing.

Thanks Perna, I think you are soooo right, and now I'm very scared that I sent her my concern, because maybe both of us were too hasty. Goodness. But.... if she is a professional... she'll be able to step back and see my fear and be constructive, right, not just be insulted and react really badly? Do you think?