Speed, keep in touch here and don't feel that you can't say what's in your heart.

The stress your husband is causing you is just completely uncalled for. If you
can afford the psychiatrist who is also certified in accupuncture, I'd go back to
him even if I had to go into my savings for at least one or two months. Both
you and your husband need to talk to him.

You need to get your husband off your back and see that he understands
that your grief is different from his. All the trouble he's causing you makes it
that much more difficult to recover.

Do something about it, Speed; please don't give up. Everyone is here for you.