Thank you all. I wish I could respond all individually but I am hysterical right now.

My mom wants to leave. She wants to go stay with my grandmother in Florida. She's buying tickets as I speak with money we don't have. And she tells me this knowing she has doctors for her HEART and she goes "I don't care. Maybe I'll get a heart attack and just die already." and i JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I told her FINALLY "PLEASE stop saying things like that!" and she told me "Bring your brother back, then."

I'M SORRY HE WAS TERMINALLY ILL. IT'S NOT MY FAULT HE DIED. I CAN'T BRING BACK THE DEAD TO HAVE A DECENT FAMILY AGAIN

I am just done. Done done done I feel so alone at home and now she's leaving me when I need her the most so what is even the point of anything. Everyone gets to escape, i dont. I dont have that god damn privilege. I am done hearing how everyone wants to die and how it doesn't matter ha ha like I ever mattered anyway I am just the kid that gets all of the crap to deal with and none of the support

Im finsihed.