Yeah, I did this too. It was kind of my security--if things get too bad, I'll be OK....I'll know what to do. It was NOT a good sign. then I called the suicide helpline and looked at some of the websites and that was more help, made me feel better, and contributed to my improving my overall situation. I'd suggest you try them and avoid your game--it's serious business. We want you to be safe and give yourself time to work through your issues.

Susan