it is addictive, and no, it's not something you can do about anymore, your body has teken over and you need more than your mind to over come it. Not to mention you need to be under medical care because withdrawl symptoms can be or become very dangerous. it would be best to talk to a psychiatrist or your family dr and get into an inpatient detox program or addiction unit at a psychiatric hospital. this is not your fault, and it doesn't make you a bad person for wanting to stop and not being able to, you can't stop, thats why it's called an addiction. even though the title is "boys and girls town" national hotline, they can hook up adults with resources as well. please give the hotline or your dr a call as soon as you can, the hotline is open 24 hours a day

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