I wish I had journaled in the past because between 1994 & 2003, my whole life is a huge black hole with no way of recreating what happened during those years.....& I know there were a lot of suicide attempts & hospitalizations.....mixed in with dog showing & dressage horse riding & showing......but that summary is really all the details I even remember.

I am trying to put the emotions together & am so much better understanding why my reaction were that way.....& I don't think I was even aware of that understanding at the time.....couldn't see the forest for the trees so to speak....but leaving the bad marriage has opened up a lot in that area....just now specific memories

Journaling is really a good idea....I live completely alone so no worries about anyone finding anything I write in the now.