Hello Pop and welcome to PC.

Sorry you're hurting still over your ex.. and 7 months can feel like forever and no time at all when you miss someone and I think that's ok. It's hard when someone lets us go.

And yes, it does sound like you're depressed but pleased to read that you're off to see a specialist soon to help you. In the mean time, and I know that it feels like the last thing you want to do, but it would help am sure if you got yourself out and about - start living again. Spending most of your time alone in your room allows you too much time to think and dwell, and this will not help you move forward. Do you have a couple of good friends that you can go see? Anything you used to love doing as a hobby, or a film you want to go see at the cinema? Do you like keep fit? That can help a lot. Anything really that may give you a little lift, even for an hour or two. Sure, the first few times will be hard to get out and about, but it will get easier. The more you do equals the less time you have to think of your ex, and will help you get more balance with the time you spend thinking.

And there's nothing wrong with still loving someone - that stuff doesn't fade away overnight, so I really don't think its silly, but it also doesn't mean that you let that love for him take over your life - nobody is worth that, ever. Sorry to hear your relative wasn't supportive either, but that could be more their issue than yours, so try not to let that upset you too much.

Lastly, try not to hit yourself.. count to ten before acting out if you feel anger. I think tho that as you're hurting you should give yourself a hug instead. Be kind to yourself.