At least thats how it feels.

My husband calls me last night from work, our car is over heating, etc..He lets it cool down checks and there is plenty of fluid in the radiator. So starts car again and sure enough goes into the red after a few mins. This is after midnight. Its 17 degrees outside and he is freezing. So he calls his mother to come get him. He gets home. We decide it is probably nothing we will no more in the morning.

Well morning came. We had to wait for someone to become available to take my husband to see about our car. Gets to car and can't even start it because, everything is frozen solid. He works for a security company and the place is being nice and letting us leave the car there a few days. There is really nothing we can do about the car till the weather warms up enough for it to thaw so we can see what is wrong with it. Doesn't matter though, we have no money to fix what ever might be wrong with it. And now with no car, he can't get back and forth to work. ( thank god his finals are over so we don't have to worry about him getting back and forth to college.) I can't get to my T's appt. I need to buy groceries in the morning. We are literally out of food I fixed scrambled eggs for dinner, thank god for WIC. And guess what every member of his family is busy. Oh but, his 18 year old sister says she can take me in the morning but, I will have to be quick because, she doesn't do mornings.

Even when the car thaws out we can't afford to get it towed and even if we could get it towed we have no where to tow it to. As part of our lease agreement we are not allowed to have any non-running vehicles in our parking spot.

So in all likelihood he will lose his job. He is gonna start walking around to the business here close by and pick up applications. See if he can get something within walking distance. The soonest we would be able to afford to get the car running would be 27th / 28th of Dec. thats when we get the left over money from his student loan after paying for his next quarter. It will have to be used to either get us another car or try to get the one we have running if we can find someone to let us store it on their property ( if not we will just have to sell it to a junk yard.) The money that we are getting on the 27th / 28th was gonna be used to give our kids a christmas because, we can't afford one on what he makes normally from his current job ( its just enough to pay the bills barely.) That will make this the 3rd year in row that we have not been able to give our kids a christmas because, the past two years my husband has been recovering from surgery and treatment after a cancerous tumor was found in his left femur.

Please someone tell me its gonna get better because, from where I am sitting I can't see the sunlight from all the darkness.

i am gonna shut up for now sorry this post is so long.