Yep, I couldn't, and evidently wouldn't put up with ****** side effects either, so I get where you're coming from I found lactating atrocious, and I'm a woman, so can only imagine what you must have thought about that little addition to your body!

I'm with gen, forget the judgmental ex, don't waste your time, she'll only pull you down instead of lift you up.

Being stuck is no fun, make a list of pros and cons for the things you find yourself sitting on the fence. That way you make a logical non emotional decision.

I'm no fan of T's but I will say this, your T can't provide accurate help with misinformation. That's the one person you need to be really honest with, or you're wasting your time and money, and misleading the T simultaneously.

As for going med free, that's a personal decision, I know I do function better off of them, and have been doing so for almost 3 yrs now, so have decided to stay med free for as long as I deem possible.

Don't run, you can do this