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Old Jul 29, 2013, 02:58 AM
Anonymous33150
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Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet View Post
I am 34 years old I'm mostly a loner. Mostly unemployed too, although I have worked a few years, and done some temp work.

Tomorrow is my 35th birthday and maybe it's because of this that I am contemplating life, and I feel that I have nothing left to achieve and that my work on this planet is done.

I managed a brief relationship recently and that ended. I feel that I have nothing left to achieve now.

Anyone else get like this? I won't suicide because I don't have it in me to do that, but I think about it a lot. I just wish I would die in my sleep or something.

I don't feel depressed by the way, just want out of here.
I completely get this...I tell my pdoc that "I don't want to be here anymore" as the best way to describe it. I won't sui either....I have a chronically ill cat and w/out me he would have no one to take care of him, so I have a reason to be here. Two other cats too, but anyone could take care of them (even though one is a nasty little thing and on Prozac for aggression).

But yeah I feel done too...I am a few years older than you but I began to feel this way right at 35 as well. I also could no longer remain in contact with the man I am in love with at that time, and then my really deep depression began. I am not interested in being with anyone else, even though I just tried dating someone from my past and it was a miserable failure...so now I am completely done with that whole idea.

I am sorry you are feeling this way, too...just wanted to let you know how much I can relate. Hope things get better for you.
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