hmmm...what to say to myself?

like a calamity in progress there is little effort in stabilising when I'm flat out on the floor...

such troubles assault me and I realise that the most troubling thing in my world?....as most recently displayed by all that I have done...
the most troubling thing that nearly kills me every day!

I am so alone

I am so lonely

I never thought I would admit it

I always imagined I was strong

but I am not

and the tears fall off my lonely face