The thing that depresses me the most? I'm 21 years old and came down with a rare form of shingles in my ear on May 17th. Yes I said IN my ear, not on my ear. I've only been back to work for 2 weeks at this point, and shingles attacks the central nervous system, so half of my face is now paralyzed. There's a 60% chance that I will regain some function of it within 18 months, but taping my eye shut to sleep at night is starting to wear on me. I've never been in a relationship and I had so many goals for this summer. It ended up consisting of me laying in my bed with vertigo too intense to stand or walk. Attracting someone with a half paralyzed face is difficult. Every time I smile I look like a pirate saying "Arrrr!!" and I already went 21 years before this with no luck. I guess you could say it seems like my life, instead of being a collection of good memories that I could look back on when I'm older, is a collection of depressing times and yearning. And my eye really hurts right now.