Wanting to be loved is a normal natural thing. Feelings of abandonment, real or percveived, hurt deeply. You are not immature, you have real emotional needs and you may just be discovering how important they are to you.

I exhaust myself worrying about when someone is going to leave me... not if they are, because there is no if in my mind--it is inevitable that they will. It makes me distort reality and I can read somethng someone says when I am in my worry state and it will sound as if they are getting ready to say 'so long'.. then later when I am feeling better I can read it again and it doesn't sound that way at all.

I really admire your being able to talk to your T about this.

I'm glad you are feeling better. Please don't judge yourself about this need you have or the readiness to believe people will leave you; keep exploring it for greater understanding.

ECHOES