from your writing and what you said, you can write, that is a talent there. I used that for the longest time as a positive when I was feeling down on myself and I was never published. I just wrote good reports. im a really sloppy writer everywhere else. but whenever I thought negative things about me, I could say, "yeah, but im a really good writer" because that was a talent I had. and that made me feel better about me. eventually I came up with more good things about me to add to the list. so don't discredit your writing skills. its a talent that you have. feel good about it.