Hi Gracez,
I am not sure what to tell, but my feelings about myself are similar to yours. Sometimes, I try to be grateful of things I have, even little things, and I feel better. For example yesterday I was crying because it is very cold here and I could not fall asleep because of the coldness. This happens because among other things my body does not adjust well to weather changes. After 3 hours, I am regularly warm enough, but it is hard to cope with the time before it. Yesterday, I tried to think in positive and thought that many other people do not have a roof on their heads, that I would get warm eventually and that there would be solutions I could try. I said "I am grateful I have a bed, blankets, and a house". I felt better.