Because believing is a fundamental quality of life, I think, Gracez. So much depends
on what we believe.

It's my belief that spirituality is largely an inside job. That's where the problems are when
we're just not able to function. I've read that developing spirituality is a savage fight
between ourselves and our spirit for control.

We've got to learn to let the spiritual life be our guide if we want to overcome fear, indifference, pain, lack of love, etc. Another way of saying it is that our ego gets in the way of our permitting God to enter our spirit and lead us toward a view of life that is higher than our own view of it.

Do you ever wonder why some people seem to function regardless of what's happening
around them? In my view, it's that they aren't relying just on what they have inside
them, they're relying on a Spiritual Force that comes to them to strengthen them for the work
to be done. And a big part of life is work whether it's in the home, in helping the lives
of others, in being a doctor, a nurse, a leader, a follower, or whatever gift we've
been given for helping in life. A huge part of being effective, Gracez, is helping others.
(We are actually helping ourselves when we do that.) Consequently, in that way we
continue to grow in maturity as we live the spiritual life.

What is really missing in the person who feels no emotions is a Spiritual Guide
to lead the self into a new and higher realm of thinking and living.

So many of the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous relate to these developments of
the spirit. You can do it if you try. Get a little paperback called "Keep It Simple"
and study it. The ideas contained in that and in spiritual exercises of Ignatious Loyola are two keys to leading you out of the darkness into light.

It all depends on what you want for your inner well-being.

Take care.