been a while since ive visited here.

ive been fairly okay lately. not perfect, but okay. i think i finally let go of an attachment. i sent him a short message yesterday after which i cried, but the tears lasted for the SHORTEST time. i have always found myself blubbering for long periods of time over him, but it was different yesterday. i cried for a minute and then i was done. i've latched onto him for long enough. i really hope i can keep my self control with this.

ive been working an enrichment program/day camp with 6 & 7 year olds, but i miss my regular preschool classroom and i'm eager to go back to meet new children and see old ones again.

i'm finding myself frustrated at camp and i cannot WAIT until it's over. 14 more days...well, 12 for me. don't think i'll be working camp next year.

i'm truly considering checking out portland, oregon...have felt a pull to there for many years now and i finally want to travel there and see what it's all about. maybe i'll escape there and start a renewed life or something. i dunno.

i talk too much.

hi.