i have been taking these culinary classes. today i was cutting apples with a big sharp knife. i cut myself twice by accident. the sad thing is, i looked at my hands bleeding and i wanted to cut more. just cut until they were covered in blood. the thing is there were people around. im glad there were people around because if not, i would have done some really bad damage. the other day my cat accidentally scratched me and i looked at the scratch and i wanted to make it bleed. i dont know what to do..