I haven't told anyone about how I feel, and I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't tell anyone. So, forgive me for the long post.

When I was a baby, my parents got divorced. That was the only life I knew with my parents. I got to spend a couple days with mom, then a couple with dad, and so on. I was bullied a lot, even during first grade. I had/have different tastes in things than other kids I knew, making me an "outsider."

Around a year ago, my mom and stepdad had gotten divorced, and that caused me to be separated with my step dad, step sister, and dog, who I was all very close to. Not long after that, my dad moved across the country for a job, and now I rarely see him. And now, I'm going to to a school where everyone is actually smart and I don't know anyone.

I get bullied. I get unexplained headaches and stomachaches. I've thought about self harm ,and i've had suicidal thoughts multiple times. I dont seem to show my true feelings when I'm around people. I'm just so scared that no one will care.

Ok, so that's the end of my post. Sorry for making you read all of that, I just needed to get that off of my chest. Some things I left out because I didn't want to make this too lengthy, and I don't want to expose my entire personal life.