Feeling remorseful/ashamed because yesterday morning, in a hypomanic state, I was so sure it was the right thing for my husband and me to go to France ASAP. I don't even know if he can get vacation time, and I am still only on 25 mg lamictal and ultra rapid cycling.

Anyway, I posted on Facebook how we were most likely going, and verified with my friend in France the same (that we would visit). Now, with a more clear head, I'm feeling like a dumb as* for opening my trap. I KNEW at the time that it was hypomania talking, but I couldn't help myself . . .

We still MAY go in September, but I just feel so frustrated that I feel like I can't help myself from doing and saying things lately that a small voice in my head tells me is wrong/inappropriate!