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Originally Posted by feelingsoworthless
I'm so scared right now that i think i might do something silly
I seriously think the drugs have messed up his brain as it's like he's had a complete personality transplant!!!
I wish I could pack my stuff and leave and if I could I WOULD but I can't as I have severe anxiety problems and agoraphobia and it's like he uses that to his full advantage knowing that I can't just up and go!
Please can anyone just listen even if you can't offer advice? I feel so alone right now.
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Through your words, are you implying that packing up your bags and leaving is 'silly'?
I agree with Ham-Bam, about finding someone to help you, as you pack your bags to leave. 'If I could, I Would, BUT I Can't', is negative self-talk that needs to be addressed by someone.
On one, hand, you mention you are afraid to do something silly--is leaving a crack and heroin addict, truly, that silly? So, he has thanked you for standing by him, in the past. You are not obligated to be his door-mat. I don't believe, he's using your anxiety against you, I feel there's something else, maybe your desire to be his only supporter in life? But hey, who knows what illnesses he could bring home one of these days.
With heroin, you are now, at high risk for HIV, due to syringe usage. What about that?! He's now establishing promiscuous behaviors? And that's nothing to stand by and watch unfold, is it?