I've come to the understanding, especially after studying abroad, that I am a good person, but different from a lot of people and this makes it hard to make friends and get into a relationship. My mental health issues make it even harder. I have a lot of personal growth to do, but I need support to get better and make my life easier.

I haven't talked to my main squeeze while I was in Europe. I texted him and told him that I miss him and he hasn't texted back. I'm worried that he doesn't like me anymore.

I'm losing support everywhere. Two friends recently called off our friendship. Two more are moving away. Another was a former fling of mine who got into a relationship (after telling me he couldn't handle one right now) and I feel like I should politely distance myself from him for a month so that I can sort my feelings out and don't treat him unfairly.

I'm losing support everywhere and don't know how I can get better if I don't have support. I don't want to get lonely and self hating and just party to feel better. I want to grow, but I fear that I'm going to have no one to understand me or care about me.

Advice?