Well, 24 hours back on reg meds and I feel exhausted from the ordeal. I feel really frightened,-still by the experience with the doc. I just had a call from her office, they have sched me to start Thurs instead of fri at 9:00 a.m I am still waiting for doc herself to call but we will see, I doubt she will. It leaves me in a place of fear, distrust and depression. I will not take the narcotics. My back is okay today. I would say I was more sore then anything. And I will wait for the pain clinic. But what do I do with the whole fear and self-loathing? The fear is so big.