Well, sister inlaw came over and took me grocery shopping, we have a food card and it was charged up today so have plenty of food in the house.

The people where my husband works told him when he comes into work Thursday ( his mom is gonna let us use her car to get him to work that day ) that if he can push it into one of the heated garages and see if that will help it to thaw. Another friend of ours said if we could get into town he would let us put it in his garage and we could use space heaters to thaw the motor. Once it's thawed we will be able to see what the damage is and get an idea of what it will take to fix it.

Sister inlaw took me up to the welfare offices today and I filled out a BOOST application. If we qualify ( and we should ) they will provide the money needed to make the repairs on the car.

And tomorrow, I have my assesment (sp) appt. with the counseling center and will meet my T. While I am doing that hubby is gonna take his books from last quarter back up to the college and see if they will buy them back as well as register for next quarter. He is working hard at finishing up his degree which should be in March 08'. And then finally with time we can be out of the system and able to support our family completely.

Now if we can just keep finding rides for hubby back and forth to work and to our appt.s one of our twin daughters has an appt. next Tues. 12th for an barrium xray test on her esophagus, she has trouble with choking when she lays down flat on her back or even reclines she has to sleep sitting up right now which keeps us up most of the night to keep an eye on her so that she doesn't lay down flat and start choking.. As well as she is scheduled for a hearing test on the 13th between us, the school and her Dr. They are sure she has some sort of hearing impairment.

I won't lie, I am very nervous about tomorrow it will be the first time that I have been to a T. I fear that maybe, I am not ready to confront my past. But, I can't keep going at this rate. I don't even wanna get out of bed mosts days and don't even wanna do anything. Its getting harder and harder to make myself even cook meals. I stay so exhausted and I can't quit crying or going off angry. I have started having really odd dreams and even a few nightmares about my past.

Thank you all for being here and not telling me to shut up. I know that what I am dealing with going thru is not half of what some of you have had to deal with and pray every night for god to watch over all us, protect us and guide us as we struggle thru our days.