Your son's eyes are kind. I am so sorry your heart is broken and that your husband is treating you in a less than respectful way. I wonder if you are his only "safe" place to explode from his broken heart...not that it makes it ok, i am just wondering if his combativeness is simply grief. Hang tight...your new T should be able to get in there and help you sift through things. Keep enough strength held back to get your self to that appointment and make sure you have a few things written down so that you can make the most of the time you spend. Well wishes for your heart to find a reason that makes life worth living.