Poppy, you haven't discussed whether you have been on addictive drugs at any time
in the past. Are you willing to discuss that with us? One major consequence of
use of illicit drugs is that they can create a condition known as "indifference", a
state in which the emotions are just withdrawn from a person's life.

Frankly, it sounds a little to me as though you might be experiencing something like
that or a reaction to a traumatic experience that has caused you to withdraw your
emotions.

I've really offered all I know to suggest; you have to put forth the effort to get to
the bottom of your emotionless state; otherwise, the status quo won't change.

I hope you will see a therapist to get the help you need to work through the trauma
or alleviate the consequences of past drug use, if that's what it is.

Your fear is a significant symptom. Something's there that needs to be relieved
from either your unconscious or conscious life; therapy can be beneficial.