The thing that bothers me the most out of all of this is all of this came back to me after my ex recently contacted me again a couple months ago after going four months of not talking. I was seeing someone new and then she confused me and all these guilty feelings came back and have been on my mind ever since (and I'm no longer seeing that other girl). Everything that I did was totally out of character for myself. I don't like it.

I really hope there is light at the end of the tunnel through all of this. Has anyone else been in the same boat as me? Not necessarily my actions, but guilt/shame/relationship patterns, etc? I know this will be a long process seeing someone, but it's hard to be positive when all I'm doing is being negative right now. :-(