Thank you, Winter. I am sorry if I have seemed rude, but the time for making excuses for my mom has ended. When it starts to fringe on my sisters livelihood, my own, and my mothers, it's time for this to stop. I am not at all implying that her suffering is false. Or that she is doing this because she truly hates me. I am, however, showing the implications that have come from her suffering and how that is affecting the functionality of what is left of our family.

She knows she needs help. But she cancels her therapy, she tells everyone she is taking her meds when she is not. Her mental illness is telling her to choose this life, if that is what it can be called, and it isn't right. If this was me, they'd have me in the hospital in the snap of a finger. But since it is my mother, she will continue suffering and scaring me and my sister that she will take her own life simply to be with her dead son. And if someone cannot understand how god damn heart breaking that is, I don't know how else to explain it.