I've always felt this way - there is no place for me, no role for me. I try to soldier on and make the best, but there is not much of a comfort zone nor sense of purpose. I wasn't meant to be born. My dear husband doesn't like to hear this, but he knows it's how I feel. I'm lucky to have him and I do try to focus on constructive thoughts, but that doesn't mean reality is shiny-happy.