Why can't things get better? I have to be around someone right now to be safe. I am having strong urges to hurt myself. I am afraid that even being around someone, I will still find a way to do something.

I am trying to hang in there, but it is hard. I am so wantingto give into these urges I am having but I promised my therapist I would not act on them. I see her next Tuesday. We did make a plan to stay safe when I am alone Wednesday. And I am going to try really hard to go a support group on Thursday.