Thanks Gayleggg and DePressMe for the support. Gayle, I think you are right. He needs to accept some responsibility. Just to hear him apologize would ease so much pain.

Everyone keeps telling me time will heal everything, but until then, it is hard to want to get up every morning. He and I were camping when the fire broke out and by the time we got back into town, police wouldn't let me into my neighborhood. I didn't even get the chance to collect personal belongings like photographs. All I have is a duffel bag with clothes, a sleeping bag, and my car. After my house burned down, my boyfriend never left my side and was so wonderful during that time. He really became my crutch. Now I have to find a new crutch. Any suggestions? One thing I think I will do is right now I'm staying in a furnished short term rental. I was going wait to start replacing items lost in the fire until I found a job and a more permanent place to live, but I'd be nice to have a few things around that reflect my personality. Otherwise, what can I do to motivate myself to get out of bed?