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Originally Posted by newgal2
I am going through a bad time (mixed state), where I have periods of extreme anger. Okay when I'm alone or with friends, but I seem to let loose with my husband.
This morning, I was a raging bitc* with him, and I feel so remorseful. It's not me, and it's not the woman he fell in love with and married. He has stuck with me through so much over the past 2 years (physical and mental illness), and I'm afraid he will tired of it and leave me.
He says he is committed to me forever, but I still experience this fear. I wish I could just keep my trap shut when I swing to mania, but I just can't.
Why does this damn illness continue to fuc* up my life!?
Patience is what I need. Still at 25 mg lamictal only, and not going up to 50 until Saturday. Maybe things won't be quite so bad at 50? Taking 100 mg geodon at night, and 2 mg saphris and still feel this way. Plus, gaining a ton of weight (well, 10 lbs) on saphris.
OK, I"ll shut up now.
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Question for you, Im not sure this will help you, but maybe help me understand- when you get angry with your husband but are able to control your anger around others, is your anger directly related to him or something he did? Or is it just that its safe to "release" that anger on him? Do you blame him for your anger?
I apologize for all the questions- Im trying to help sort thru some issues in my life. Any insight..
Thanks and the best of luck. I hear lamicital is the miracle med!