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Originally Posted by bubsmiley
Then, the ED voice. If you stopped eating now, you'd weigh even less by the time you go see the nutritionist on Thursday. She'd ask if everything was ok, and you could tell her, "no - everything is not ok" and she'd feel bad for you and give you TLC.
Then I thought, I better check it tomorrow. What if I gained weight overnight?
And when I was about to step on scale next day, I remembered, "STOP! You don't do this. This isn't who you are anymore. If you want to talk to nutritionist about how you're not okay, just TALK TO NUTRITIONIST. You don't have to make it be about weight and food. It's ok to just want and ask for TLC."
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Wow, I relate to that.....back after I had gone through the trauma & was feeling so sick I couldn't eat & my weight just kept dropping & dropping & dropping.....& a lot of what I also needed was validation for what I had gone through & someone to care after going through the trauma & loosing my mother to the cancer. I had given those last few months completely to my mother & landed in the middle of the trauma with the home care person......all I wanted was someone to care about me & how I was doing......lightbulb moment here.....being in the medical hospital gave me the physical care I couldn't give myself.....but the psychological care was completely missing.
@ Yoda
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I bought a graham cracker pie and ate half of it. Then the rest later that day. Yesterday... another graham cracker pie all eaten in less than twelve hours.
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I cut up fresh strawberries & put it in the gram cracker crust & they spoon the strawberry rubarb sauce over it.....makes a yummy pie....but I either eat it all within the day or it's usually spoiled if I don't.....so I justify my eating the pie because I don't want it to spoil....it's tough living alone & not having anyone else help eat the food before it spoils (that's my excuse & I'll stand with it....lol)..........while most of the time I don't eat unless I have something I don't want to end up spoiling especially when it comes to fruit.
Sometimes fruit causes other problems with my digestion & end up needing the bathroom close by & that usually takes care of any weight gain that might have occurred.......this problem is something that happens all too often after my last experience with the anorexia.....not eating then eating my system doesn't know how to react.
I can end up getting so distracted around my house that all my good intentions to eat fly out the window......& it's the next day & I realize that I didn't eat anything & my body didn't even tell me it's hungry.....maybe I need to eat every time I feed my dogs.....even though that's not at a set time every day.....they are more grangers so there is usually always food they are eating on....but when I feed them it would be a good time to make sure I feed myself.....that would at least insure one meal a day.