Dear Poppyprincess, I can really relate to how you feel, "Depressed as usual". I often ask myself, when will it ever go away? I exercise, try to be positive, try to speak positively to myself. I often find myself withdrawing from others, feeling like suffering is all I will ever know. I often hate my life, BUT...once I tried to take my life, and the experience I went through was so horrible. I never, ever want to go through it again. If I ever think of hurting myself, I immediately dismiss the thought. I am trying to get better, and hurting myself would be a really bad move. I find that I need to remind myself to be my own best friend. I have had to often say no to requests that put extra stress on me. (By the way, I like the sound of the lemon remedy. Cant hurt, might help.) Hoping that we both find some joy today. And lets hold tightly to it!