Friend, I can relate to what you are feeling. The very people who should understand and support you, dont. Take care of yourself. Remember, no one else can or will. Surely, you can have others on your team. I know its tough. I was abandoned emotionally/rejected by my spouse and children. It took a long time, but I came to realize I must take care of myself. Sometimes i "fall off the wagon". Then I need a lot of understanding and support. Sometimes it helps to get lost in a good book. Or take a nap (but dont sleep more than you need). Blessings.