Moxie- I made it very clear at the beginning of therapy that I didn't want help with ED. I felt it was a non issue as I was stable ED wise and felt I was in recovery. T quickly told me I wasn't. My exact reaction to that was ED was drinking age so I've made my piece with her.

I use to be completely okay with talking about ED. If I was talking about that I didn't have to talk about myself. 2 sessions ago my T purposely triggered my ED. She offered me candy and then left it there. I was doing REALLY good at hiding how bothered I was but 5 min before I left I picked it up said sorry and put it out of my sight.

I brought this incident up last session and learned that it was purposeful as was one other time. I suspected that but there was only a flash of complete terror and then I seemed to recover. Until I picked it up and looked like I'd make a hole in the wall if I throw it. So I was okay talking about that.

Later that session she brought ED up, it kicked the wind out of me and I refused to talk about it. Since I've been upset because I know she'll bring it up next session and for some reason that idea frighteneds me. I just don't get it.

My ED is on a trigger basis too and if I deal with that it calms down but this seems solely ed. I just don't under stand.