I am out of control. I need help. I am in counciling but I does not seem to be going anywhere. I am on meds (lamictal & seroquil) though my doc is still trying to dial in the correct doses, and I have taken it upon myself to understand and learn everything about my illness. I have read Kay Johnson's "An Unquiet Mind" cover to cover and go to a support group for bipolar. But no mater where I seek the answer to this question I am left empty handed: how do I learn control? I have these periods where everything is perfect and I can handle everything with a grin and can actually think about walking away or even how to defuse a tense situation. But other times... I just react. I make very bad decisions about what to say and how to act. How do I change that? The "just do it" approach that everyone keeps telling me doesn't help. I have committed myself 100% to getting better. If there was a way to simply will myself to handle things better I would not have this problem in the first place. My girlfriend says I am just not trying and when I tell her it was my illness and that I could not control myself she says I am hiding behind it.

Please, someone help me! I don't wand to be out of control anymore!