It's not normal for me to have this kind of free-floating anxiety. I also don't usually have this self pity thing I'm doing.

My husband really pushed me to get on disability, and sometimes I'm glad to be on it, but I think it's bad for me. I'm not a self starter. Also, I don't have much stress in my life on a daily basis which makes handling stress when it does come that much harder. But I'm sorry for rambling. I just feel a mess today