I would write a longer reply, but my brain is not all here right now. But thank you.

We are both in therapy. She likes her therapist, I hate her. But I cannot find another therapist in my area that takes my medicaid coverage. So I am stuck with her. And though my PTSD may seem more controlled then hers, it's simply because I self harm and internalize all that I can. She does the opposite. She is, as odd as it sounds, more open. She's verbal. I am not.

I don't think there is going to be much help either way. Then again, tonight, I am very discouraged and very exhausted. Which is making me very pessimistic. I have my T tomorrow and I'll see if she will actually be helpful.